It has been one of the worst weeks I had to endure this past 9 Months. Life was coming at me uncontrollably fast an furious. Go ahead and get sick for basically 1 month straight and try to deal with things. Being in sales during these fanatical times is really hard too. Because day to day it really feels like i am lying to myself. Lying to others and puting on a front so that they like you was extemely hard to do this week. In essence i try to make people like me day in and day out.
I had the decision in my head and had myself convinced to drop out of the Crossfit Games Open. There are a lot of things that you cannot control but this was one thing that i had complete control in. There was a lot of justification and rationalilzation in my decision to quit. Hard times.
FUCK IT. No one but myself gave me this second chance today. As crossfitters we are surrounded by support and shoulders to lean on. But really it is up to you to decide to take control.
So this is what i did today.
Everyone in that BOX today was my go. All the words, taps on the back, handshakes, and looks i got is what made everything right again today.
Doing the actual WOD could have been a rudementary in the turning point, but what mattered was a "good job", "nice Chris", "way to go", "pick up that bar". This truly resonated within me. And made me realize the good people behind you will always be there so i owe it to myself and them to become what i should be.
Today i succeeded.
Thank you my friends.
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